1.30.2008
1.22.2008
Heartache
I am a person who likes being around people. I thrive on social interaction, on friendship, on giving and receiving positivity and love. Maybe it's because I lived almost my whole life in the same place, surrounded by family and friends who I grew up with.
Nine months ago, I decided that in I was so comfortable in that zone that I'd never grow. I'd never become as strong of a person as I wanted to be if I never set out on my own. So I took what for me was a big step.
I moved to L.A. and into an apartment with someone I didn't know.
In these months, I've learned a lot. I know I've grown immensely. I've learned how to do a lot of things on my own. But you know what? I don't feel stronger.
I'll tell you how I do feel: LONELY. And not in that fleeting, temporary way. I am hopelessly, heartachingly lonely. My family is a mere 40 miles away and I have good friends in the area and a job I really like. But it's just not working ... I don't know why.
Maybe I will never be someone who will never be able to handle a great new adventure
in a new city. Maybe I overestimated my abilities. Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought.
Nine months ago, I decided that in I was so comfortable in that zone that I'd never grow. I'd never become as strong of a person as I wanted to be if I never set out on my own. So I took what for me was a big step.
I moved to L.A. and into an apartment with someone I didn't know.
In these months, I've learned a lot. I know I've grown immensely. I've learned how to do a lot of things on my own. But you know what? I don't feel stronger.
I'll tell you how I do feel: LONELY. And not in that fleeting, temporary way. I am hopelessly, heartachingly lonely. My family is a mere 40 miles away and I have good friends in the area and a job I really like. But it's just not working ... I don't know why.
Maybe I will never be someone who will never be able to handle a great new adventure
in a new city. Maybe I overestimated my abilities. Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought.
1.07.2008
Happy New Year, Bitches
Back in the office, boo hoo. But I admit, I am rejuvenated and ready to kick some new year ass.
I spent the last couple of weeks enjoying cocktails in Vegas, snowshoeing in Boulder and spending time with people I enjoy and love. My tired spirit, as a result, got the kickstart it needed to start working enthusiastically toward all those things I want to achieve.
This year, I hope to:
1. Make great strides toward excellent physical, mental and spiritual health. I want to challenge myself to have a really healthy diet, push myself to a higher plateau of fitness and become a less anxious and worrisome person by figuring out more of those things that make me tick.
2. Do really well in school, whether I stay at Long Beach or transfer to UCLA.
3. Achieve something professionally, even if it's just learning something valuable to take with me.
There's more but it just gets really detailed and boring. Happy New Year, everyone. Enjoy this short video about the number one man in my life :)
I spent the last couple of weeks enjoying cocktails in Vegas, snowshoeing in Boulder and spending time with people I enjoy and love. My tired spirit, as a result, got the kickstart it needed to start working enthusiastically toward all those things I want to achieve.
This year, I hope to:
1. Make great strides toward excellent physical, mental and spiritual health. I want to challenge myself to have a really healthy diet, push myself to a higher plateau of fitness and become a less anxious and worrisome person by figuring out more of those things that make me tick.
2. Do really well in school, whether I stay at Long Beach or transfer to UCLA.
3. Achieve something professionally, even if it's just learning something valuable to take with me.
There's more but it just gets really detailed and boring. Happy New Year, everyone. Enjoy this short video about the number one man in my life :)
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