Stuff and shit

An update ....

I can't bring myself to sit down and write lately, just because there is way too much to say, way too much swirling around in my little head.

I have a very specific idea of the person I want to be: intelligent, well-informed, comfortably independent, strong, attractive, respected, modest yet confident, balanced, mellow.

It seems easy enough, but it's actually quite difficult. You see, instead of trying to live a certain way and take things as they come, I rely on results, even when it isn't time for them. When I'm not presented with results, I am ill at ease, even though it isn't those damn results that I need. Sadly enough, this carries into every aspect of my life.

I rush to establish an opinion when I really should know more about something. I make decisions simply so they are not left unmade. I mail letters when I know there's more to say. I go in for the kill before it is time. You get the idea. I jump and leap and dive when strolling along would work so much better for me.

This is something I am working to change about myself, so that I can come one step closer to achieving personal perfection =).

Kidding, of course.